January 2012
currently suffering from the both of these.
confusion: not sure what i’m going with my life after JVC this year. i though i had my mind made up, but then i finally got an email response from a volunteer program in Rwanda. very, very promising and appealing.
inadequacy: the most simplest things i do are always being corrected.
hmmph.
facebook’d my adriennemae.
she commented.
i commented.
i flip tabs to go to tumblr, and have two notifications:
- she reblogged a screen-cap of our convo a few days ago that i posted.
- she messaged me.
just made my month, warmed my heart, and brought a genuine smile to my face.

wondering what a best friend was supposed to be like? look to her.
oh how i miss her.
Heartbreak opens onto the sunrise
For even breaking is opening
And I am broken
I’m open
See the love shine in through my cracks
See the light shine out through me
My spirit takes journey
My spirit takes flight
And I am not running
I am choosing
I am broken
I am broken open
Breaking is freeing
Broken is freedom
I am not broken
I am free.
” —poem from “Pariah”